Blog: 2023
Feeling Burnt Out Lately
This post was written in en
It's starting to look like summer. All the kids are gone for their summer break. Even the traffic on a Monday morning felt significantly better. Today was a day.
I'm not out for break for the summer. As things wind down at where I work, I feel like I'm experiencing the opposite of winding down. I'm starting to feel burnt out. Over the last month or two, I feel that I've been slowing down and my sense of satisfaction of work has gone done. I know things are crazy at the end of the year. My battery is low. I need recharge. I dread feeling this way. It's okay not to feel happy an satisfied all the time.
I think, it's time I reevaluate my headspace. I'm expressing this here. We all need to acknowledge when we feel burnt out. I'm starting to acknowledge it.
I still love working in the IT position that I am. I am feeling a bit burnt out.
Not Smiling Every Single Moment
This post was written in en
Ever since I was young, I was the guy who always had a smile on his face. I mean like 90% of the time. Any where I went, any where I was spotted, any encounter. I, Pablo Morales was the smiling kid.
Façade
Smiling would help me put on a façade or a filter to mask the many emotions I feel at any given moment.
Abroad
When I visit Mexico, I've learned not to smile as much. I just experience life differently. I try not to stand out. I am always happy to see the people I love.
When I was studying in Europe, I truly learned not to smile. Many Europeans don't smile when they are out and about with their day. During studying abroad, I made it a goal to not stand out as an "American", especially during the political turmoil happening in the United States.
Even when I reverted back to my "typical smiling," I never truly reverted back.
It's okay not to smile
By not smiling, I am learning to express myself more. I can be in a great mood but not smile? Yes, I can! By smiling all the time, it taught me I wasn't true to myself. I wasn't being fair to myself. I was defrauding myself. How can I be a real person if I can't express myself?
Am I happy?
You're asking yourself this question? Is Pablo Morales, actually happy with himself? Yes, I am happy.
Has it been hard to love myself? Yes. Overall, happiness does not fall into one size fits all scenario.
There is a side of me that I am afraid to explore. I have a battle ahead. I am still looking for this battle with a smile or frown.
